Tuesday 31 October 2023

The Tides of Life


 

The Tides of Life

 

In seeing problems as challenges,

and recognizing good and bad

as the “tides of life”,

one can look forward

with joyous anticipation

to navigating a positive, happy future.

 

John
 
 
The evocative art version is here.
 

There is a selection of my art on canvas and other mediums available in my Bonanza Shop here.

 

I have two self-help stories available exclusively on Amazon, either on the Kindle or paperback, and I do hope that you find them interesting, thought-provoking, and, most of all, enjoyable: -

 

The Rock Philosophy

This simply written short story is aimed at those who seek to understand themselves, and through understanding themselves comes a greater understanding of life. 

 

The Life of Jesus

(as witnessed by his brother)

Much has been written about Jesus, and no matter your view on religion or Christianity, this person, whether he was as described in the bible or not, has singularly shaped, to a greater or lesser extent, the lives we lead today through his wisdom. There are many versions of the story, but there is only one truth, and is it not better to know the truth?

 

You are most welcome to visit my self-help youtube channel Advantage Subliminal

 

And you will find an excellent read in this story by my son Colin, and it is here.


 

Sunday 29 October 2023

Autumn


 

Autumn

 

Autumn winds

blow golden leaves

across my path.

 

John
 
 
 

There is a selection of my art on canvas and other mediums available in my Bonanza Shop here.

 

I have two self-help stories available exclusively on Amazon, either on the Kindle or paperback, and I do hope that you find them interesting, thought-provoking, and, most of all, enjoyable: -

 

The Rock Philosophy

This simply written short story is aimed at those who seek to understand themselves, and through understanding themselves comes a greater understanding of life. 

 

The Life of Jesus

(as witnessed by his brother)

Much has been written about Jesus, and no matter your view on religion or Christianity, this person, whether he was as described in the bible or not, has singularly shaped, to a greater or lesser extent, the lives we lead today through his wisdom. There are many versions of the story, but there is only one truth, and is it not better to know the truth?

 

You are most welcome to visit my self-help youtube channel Advantage Subliminal

 

And you will find an excellent read in this story by my son Colin, and it is here.

Saturday 28 October 2023

Cats and Dogs Part 2

 

Two of my sisters (my youngest sister either wasn't born yet or she was a baby), two of my cousins and my Mum's old girlhood dog, Floss. It is the Waverley steamer sailing down the River Clyde in the background.

My older sister Moira got married and moved to Edinburgh.  I, as a teenager, worked for one of the national bus companies at the time in Edinburgh.  I used to speak to the people in our London depot and as it happened, their dog had pups they were trying to find homes for, enter my sister Moira and her husband James.  A little border collie pup ended up in a large cardboard box beside the driver on the London-Edinburgh Express and Tinker as she was subsequently called entered all our lives.  My sister also got a cat, Sukie, and I as a teenager going out occasionally on a Saturday night in Edinburgh stayed the night with my sister, the dog would sleep at my side and the cat would sleep on my chest.

My oldest son, Christopher, could only have been about 2 or 3 when we had an unexpected caller at our house.  I was at work when my wife phoned, there was a cat at the front door, and it looked like a stray.  I had a brilliant idea and said to her to put some milk in a saucer outside the front door so Christopher can watch the cat drink it.  My wife opened the door and put the milk outside then she phoned me to tell me that the cat had ran inside, ran up the stairs and dived under a bed.  He became known as Skippy to all. He was about 2-3years old and had been in a few scraps according to the vet when we got him checked.  I was still not fully comfortable with cats and my wife was totally uncomfortable with cats, period! But he was a great cat and had tremendous patience with our sons as they grew up, however once they got to an age where Skippy thought they should know better, he let them know in no uncertain terms that enough was enough if they went too far.  We had him for about 14 great years when his old body started giving out; he was buried in the back garden under our apple tree.  The previous owner of our property had their cat buried down there to somewhere.

 

Over the years we had a few strays at our door including dogs too. The funniest story and it is sad and funny at the same time is about me and cats. It happened on a night when I borrowed my wife’s car to go to my Karate club where I coached. Christopher was about 7 and he came with me.  My car, a Volvo was being serviced by one of my neighbours.  The story really started a few weeks before when we thought we had a gas leak.  We could always smell what we thought was gas in our driveway.  The gas board checked everything and said there was no leak, enter my karate night.  We had finished training, it was dark outside as we were heading back home, still wearing our Karate suits, when a cat must have saw me in the car coming around a bend and then promptly jumped in the air in front of the car and subsequently was hit.  Christopher and I got out checking the poor thing; it was obvious it was going to die so I gently and as carefully as I could moved it to the side of the road before returning home.  I cautioned Christopher not to tell his Mum about the cat as I would tell her.  We parked in the driveway; Christopher left the car like a rocket shouting, Mum! Mum! Dad killed a cat, he shouted for all the world to hear, (as if I had purposely got a gun and shot it).  My wife came to the door and pointed to a white bag sitting outside on the doorstep,

“You’ll never guess what is in there?” she asked,

I shook my head stumped.  She told me when Stewart our mechanic was working on the car he had to feel about under the engine and discovered a damp bundle, which turned out to be a dead cat.  The cat must have climbed under the engine when it was warm, either when I or the previous owner had it.  When the engine was started the cat died. So, we finally found out what the gassy smell was in our driveway.

 

This was 9.30 now on a dark, windy Thursday night; my first priority was to phone the police regarding the cat I had hit with the car in case there was some family wondering what happened to their cat.  The next priority was to bury the poor cat in the bag which must have been a bizarre scene for any onlooker, seeing this figure in the dark, clothed in white (my karate suit) wielding a shovel and digging a hole in my bag garden with the intention of burying something, who knows what thoughts would have passed through their minds?

 

I loved our cat, Skippy, however it was a dog I always wanted and anytime the subject came up it was rejected as not practical. Anyway, during a weak moment on my wife’s part, I seized the opportunity of calling the guide dogs as I had heard it was possible to obtain either a young dog that had been rejected from training or a retired dog.  After a bit of to-ing and fro-ing we received an interview to make sure we were suitable candidates, plus your home gets checked to ensure its suitability.  I was well warned at the time that it took a long time, as it happened, I got a call several months later to say they had a young Alsatian called Boston who had failed his training and was I interested.  Of course, I said, beside myself with excitement and anticipation, I was told the reason it had failed its training was because it was sometimes nervous.  My wife and I discussed it; I would have gone for the dog that night; however, reason prevailed with Boston being a nervous dog, as we had our young sons, and lots of children nearby.  I phoned the Guide Dogs and said no, feeling that I would never get the chance again.  Much to my surprise I received another phone call a few months later, they had a cross lab\retriever, Duke who was being retired early at 4yrs 10 months as he had a breathing problem.  My wife and our youngest son Colin who was off school that day came with us to the Guide Dogs HQ at Forfar, we hadn’t told our other two sons, thinking it would be a great surprise if we took Duke.  Well after a one and half hour drive, we arrived and were introduced to this very large dog that just looked at you with these large soulful brown eyes and it was love at first sight.  We met Boston too; he was still there, a beautiful dog but definitely not for us.

 

When you receive a guide dog you sign a contract as you never own the dog you are only fostering.  The organisation makes regular checks to make sure their dog is being well looked after.  We were also given instructions regarding feeding him as he was prone to overeating (definitely my dog). We got this large dog with its large lolling pink tongue and wagging tail in the back with Colin and we set off back home.  It had been raining slightly so there was a distinct smell of damp dog permeating the air but there was also the most pleasant feeling of knowing you had just received a great companion.

 

We arrived home where my middle son Alastair thought Christmas had come early and shared our excitement.  We took Duke a quick walk to the “field” keeping him on his lead until he got settled. My oldest son had been out with his friends drinking, coming home about 9pm to discover we had Duke.  There was nothing for it but that he and his friends took Duke out a walk which caused great amusement when he returned home saying “He’s not much of a guide dog, I closed my eyes and he let me walk into a lamppost!”  Of course, Duke was just wearing a simple lead and collar not his working “gear”. As any parent knows any pet gets amazing care to start with, Duke must have had sore paws with the amount of walking he got from the boys but that faded soon enough, they still took him out, but they now had to be asked.  I thought too as a fair-weather and early morning jogger the dog would keep me company, I soon gave up on that notion as he was definitely not a runner, I had to keep stopping and jogging backwards to help him keep up.  Eventually I went my jog on my own then came back and took him out with my legs that were tired and felt like jelly.  Duke had a breathing problem which is why we got him however it was never evident with us.  I believe it was to do with his previous work where he was with his second blind person.  This blind lady had a blind partner too and I think his guide dog was more aggressive causing the nervous, breathing condition that Duke had suffered from.  He also had the problem common too with his breed, hip displacement which became more prevalent as got older or put on weight.  I spoke to his previous owner to let him know how he was.  Much to my surprise she asked if he was still eating pants and socks, I said not as far as I was aware of, well within a couple of days what did he pass but a sock!  He would eat anything, even bark off trees.  As a consequence, he was always on a diet with the occasional treat.  Guide Dogs gave us a tag for his collar, ‘do not feed this dog’, it made not one bit of difference, he only had to look at someone eating anywhere, and he was guaranteed a snack.  One winter morning a knock came to our front door, it was a neighbour, she too had a dog.  She let me know that when Duke was in our back garden he was known to skip out to her back garden and eat the lard coated bread that she put out for the birds most mornings then, as if that wasn’t enough, he would enter her back door and coolly eat her dog’s food. It didn’t take long for Duke to be well known our village, all the children knew him and always came up to clap him.

 

It is for me a very satisfying experience walking a dog, for walking purely for the sake of walking is never the same.  My favourite time of year walking Duke was Spring time, we used to walk up the Bing (a man made hill from shale mining) in East Calder, sometimes seeing the occasional deer, enjoying the beautiful colours of the budding flowers as the bees had their pollen fill.  There is a great view of the Livingston area from the top and as you continued the walk you could look down at the burn flowing as it was in a ravine, what made it truly different for me was looking down at the birds flying.  Duke and I would finish our walk off sometimes by walking down to where the burn was accessible. It was there he loved to go for a swim even when I tried to stop him, he just got smart and always ran well in front to make sure I didn’t get in the way.  What made it worse was when he came out and rolled on the gravely bank to dry himself. I then had to encourage him to go back into the water (not that he took much encouraging) to get clean and try and catch him as he came out before he got the chance to roll in the gravel, of course all of this without getting soaked myself.

 

We had a health scare with him after we had had him a couple of years.  He had an eight-and-a-half-pound tumour in his stomach which was non-malignant, the vet said he had never removed one so large.  That was Duke’s quickest and largest weight loss, but I wouldn’t recommend it. Sadly, we had to get him put to sleep not long before his tenth birthday, he had a major bladder problem which could not be fixed.  Life was so strange and for a while lonely without him. 

 

A few years later not long before my wife and I separated we got another cat, Angel.  She was nearly what you could call a rescue cat, very independent and made the vet very cautious when she got her injections. When living in Tenerife I had a Canarian black cat chosen by my partner and her son, my stepson, Ethan.  When considering a name, the first name I came out with was Sooty! Would you believe it after all the scares I had with the cat of that name, however we finally decided on Smokey.

 

When we got Smokey he fitted in the palm of my hand, he was a very clever cat, most of the time.  We lived in a second-floor apartment with a great balcony overlooking the glistening blue sea and magnificent sunsets.  We’d had Smokey for a few months and one morning Ethan and I were going to have our breakfast but before we did, we discovered the cat was missing.  We checked all the cupboards, under beds, everywhere as cats are very good at hiding.  We couldn’t find him anywhere; I came out to the balcony where he liked to laze, checking under the sun beds but there was no sign of him anywhere. Ethan and I looked over the balcony and I whistled in the off chance he would hear me.  Sure, enough we heard a faint meow.  We still couldn’t see him anywhere, so I tried again and there was the meow.  I was sure the sound was coming from the other side of the complex, eventually I looked down to the balcony immediately below us to see this pathetic wee bundle staring up at me, he must have fallen down through the small pillars around our balcony.  Fortunately, he appeared to be okay however it was 8 o’clock, Saturday morning and it was too early to disturb my neighbours. I tried dangling a sheet from my balcony, then I walked below the balcony he was on trying to get him to somewhere I could reach him all to no avail.  So, at 8.30 I presented myself at my downstairs neighbour’s door to discover she was awake (of course she would have to be totally deaf not to have heard the meows, the whistles and the spoken encouragement) and she too had been trying to help the cat who would have none of it.  He was very glad to see me.


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